grout

       I really have some serious things going on in my life now.  I have scheduled the praxis test for early June (professional test).  I have family crisis coming out the kazoo (extended family, fortunately, not anything too dramatic within this house).  I have a _______ __   ____ _redacted  __   __XXX ______.XXX.. Well, I am not going to fix any of those problems today.  Today I am going to start to fix the grout in the downstairs bathroom.
       V. is in Europe and I said I would do this.  Evey day I wake up desperately searching for an excuse not to do it... The stupidest things can leave me paralyzed.
       So, I have now announced this to the world.  Don't say hi to me the next time we talk or write.  Say, "So, did you do the grout?"
       I need the pressure - only the guilt and embarrassment can save me now.  I can't let V get back from Europe and find no change.  She'll listen to my excuses; "I was able to fix the leak problem with this attractive plastic curtain that I have hung all around our shower/bathtub, and really, that is a much safer and cheaper solution."  (Um, that's the only excuse I've been able to come up with so far.)
       V will be nice about it, but - oh God - the shame.  My reputation as a mechanical failure and inept house keeper will be further cemented in everyone's mind.
                                                            NO
I will not let that happen.  God save us all - I'm gonna fix the house.